Special

Everyone is special.. Everyone is unique.. In a way they contradict themselves. If everyone is unique they are then not an individual but a part of a crowd that is joined by the concept that each of them is special in some way. So therefore is everyone really unique because unique would be normal and everyone would be it and not be the definition of what unique is. Sigh, yet again I am over thinking things. If only I would apply this energy I spend on pointless ponderings towards something more productive.. hmm perhaps the pile of schoolwork that is just staring at me right now.
Anyways.. being unique what is it that sets us apart as individuals but yet binds us together as a whole. Am I unique? Is there something about me that allows me to stand out from the crowd. I mean come on this amazingly hot body and model perfect face have to set me out right. Psh it would be nice if that previous statement was true. I guess I am unique in the manner of my appearance because I hate the girly girly stuff of the world. Yet I for some reason crave to one of them from time to time. A goddess whom men and women envy. Maybe my superior artistic skills just blow everyone out of the water. Again, I wish. My photography is mediocre at best and I can draw one fine stick man. So what makes me worth it?

I know many of my friends have so many qualities that I envy. Some of them a tad bit strange and I myself have only heard about but never been able to see or experience which would be kick ass I might add. Almost everyone of my friends has some sort of quality that I wish to acquire and make a part of myself. Rayne's charm and artistic abilities. Tasha's spontaneity and humor. Alisha's determination and faith. Celeste's ability to empathize and make things seem simple. I could go on and on.

So now I am left with the thoughts of what about me is desirable if anything? What sets me apart? I have trouble seeing it.