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| Jeffree Star |
A memory crossed my mind tonight while watching Faceoff. It was amazing how people could be transformed into such works of art. A rather fascinating show for anyone who is interested in the movie industry and its special effects. Anyways, the memory that crossed my mind is of a close friend of mine, Jeremy. I grew to love him but there was one problem he was gay and is currently on his way to possibly being transgender. It was amazing the transformation I saw after the months he came out to me and his friends. It was subtle but slowly he became even more girly than me. He would strut in high heels and work tight fitting dresses. His eyeliner was so perfect all the girls envied him. How could I fall for such a creature? Perhaps it was all that blush or that ever increasing confidence? Maybe deep inside I had an inner lesbian that was crying to come out? Who knows, it still baffles me. The memory in particular of this gorgeous individual was a few years ago at my college. I was at a neighboring dorm visiting with him and some friends. A pillow fight ensued and it resulted in me tipping and clumsy falling into his lap. Head first into an area only men where allowed to venture. I pulled away apologizing thinking it quite funny at the time until he grabs my head and looks me in the eyes and asks something I had never thought he would ask. Would you change into a man for me, why can't you just have a dick? I did not know how to answer, I had never thought of such a thing and now I am still wondering as to why this question puzzles me so much. Would I honestly be willing to change a physical aspect of myself, such as whether or not I have a dick? I do not think I would. I think if you honestly love someone you should be able to look beyond that aspect of them and not ask them to change. It hurts knowing that this was the only thing keeping me from being able to date someone like him. A simple body part and he wanted me to change from what I was just to satisfy him because my current self could not but yet he tells me he loves me. I think people can do whatever they want with their bodies. If you are a man and you want boobs go for it, If you a girl and you decide you do not want your breasts go for it. If that is what will make you feel complete and happy the more power to you. All I ask is this do not ask others to change their physical anatomy for your own gain. Instead how about you actually go for the people who do have that set of anatomical traits you desire. Jeremy and I are still very compatabile but I finally realized we are just friends. He has never asked me another question like this and seems to have moved on well in his life but deep inside I will always love my sweet transvestite.
