Dear Friend

Dear Friend,

I miss you already. You have made this world so much more than what it seems. Some days I feel like I am stuck in a dream. Just waiting to wake up and realize you are not there. Only a figment of my imagination, seeing the reality that I am the mad one. Yet it continues on adding memory after memory, even if you forget I will always remember for you. Our first meeting to our recent departure, each an important detail in my life catalogued away for future laughs and smiles. Of course, we have had our bad moments. Issues that have been resolved for the most part, even if one bad memory still lingers from time to time I still manage to see the good in you. No matter your dark history and your current resistance to allowing me to try and help, I still have remained. Even when at times it has brought me to tears that you seem to not be able to understand. I have weakness I know that but we all do and mine it my emotion at times but I love to feel even if it is sadness and numbness. You are probably thinking I am crying right now and sorry you are wrong once again lol. I love how at times you can read me like an open book but other days a blind man could see me better.

Be strong. I know you are. I know you have dark thoughts to even tho you will not elaborate them to me anymore. I hope.. and yes for once I pray for you not do anything foolish on those days you feel pointless or lost. I cannot imagine what I would do if something ever did happen your doing or anothers. Just know that I love you even if you do not want it. It is there for you when or if you even need it and that is all I can offer as a friend. I do not know what you think of me. I see hesitation in you and sometimes downright awkwardness or what seems like you wish I would just give up and disappear. You always however seem to some how remove that doubt in the end. We both know how I tend to exaggerate at times.

Please be safe and know that even if you feel alone in this world I still care,

Unclouded