Treat You Like A Princess

Hmmm thinking once again how it leads me to trouble. Over thought thoughts that plague my mind crawling to get out and once they do they are only thrown into my face as over-exaggerations of a depressed soul. So what I freak out over little things sometimes. Maybe its just the fact I love to argue and most of the time it is just play. It's hard for me to just let go sometimes. I can't help that I feel like if I mess up that my life is ruined. It is like walking on a tight rope and not knowing if there is a safety net below. If I fall I hope something is there to catch me and so far it has but occasionally it hasn't and has led to a few broken memories. I seem to live to be perfect even tho my life is far from it. I try and try and only am let down and causing myself more pain. I just do not get it. Then of course when trying to walk my fine line I try and gather others to help guide me or others to fix. Most of the time it is to fix people. I never can. I try and try but I fail. I care to freaking much to do me any good and once again I get hurt... I know what my problem is, I care to much about everyone and could care less what happens to me. I have yet to find a way to fix it. I have been working on it but I always get shot down. I try and focus on the positives someone told me about myself beings I could not think of any but they fly out the window. Even tho the one statement I was told made me giggle. "One day you will find someone and they are gunna treat you like a princess because of that big heart of yours". I cannot find myself believing that and further more I am not a princess nor should I be treated as such. Just treated as an equal or as someone who is worth the world to another person would be nice.